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我们自己的人生,主角永远是我们自己
作者:yugongjin 发布日期:2020-04-10 点击数:1986
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  我们自己的人生,主角永远是我们自己
  于公谨
  记忆的河流,总是不断冲撞着忧愁,在咆哮不休。那些浪花,不断挣扎,然后开始破碎,却从就没有沉睡;经历了风沙,没有优雅,只有粗暴,在不断缭绕。看着曾经的花开,看着曾经的芬芳飘来,飘着岁月的尘世,看着迷离。那些沙滩,在不断绵延,如海岸,没有任何的边际,静谧的日子,也会有着跌宕起伏,看着花儿变得模糊,慢慢凋零,慢慢地深情,在变幻着环境,便开始搁浅,留下了幽怨,却不断涌动沧海桑田。这就是情感,在不断蜿蜒。
  沐浴秋风,听着响声,可以看到风儿猎猎,也可以看到岁月凛冽。回头看看,一个个瞬间,组成了一条路,留下了许许多多的模糊。那些歪歪斜斜的脚印,留下了斑痕,如云,不断在记忆里面飘着,如歌,如河;也似乎在慢慢地哭泣,在不断游弋。从来就没有想要品味岁月里面的苍凉,却会不断经历着岁月里面的忧伤,直到流泪,直到落下疲惫。抬头的瞬间,依旧看着苍天,还是同样的蓝,只是我的心,有了认真,没有清纯,有了的只是深沉。
  一个人的人生,有风,有梦,有情,有爱,也有无奈;并不想敞开胸怀,尽管心中期待;但是,那些岁月的未来,总是会不断徘徊。每一个人的眼睛,都有着安宁,却不会保持平静;因为岁月的天,在不断留恋。一路上走过来,留下多少无奈?看着岁月的脸,就这样磕磕绊绊,伴随着云烟,在不断飘着涟漪,留下了回忆。从来就没有想要舍弃,只是许许多多的东西,在不断增加沉重,却并没有轻松。这这就是包袱,也是时光的路,在不断忧郁。
  平坦的路,有时候也会感觉不舒服;经历崎岖,才会知道什么是风雨;从来就没有简单的复制,有的只是心意,留下了无数的旖旎,也会让人情不自禁地哭泣。想着期且,想要让再一次进行黏贴,却总是会不曾出现着旧的一切,总是会有着新的世界。并不是季节,也会看到脚步的趔趄。这就是一个人的生活,有着失落,有着交错,有着岁月的执着。或许,这个时候,已经知道什么是磨难,也会只是什么恬淡,也会知道什么是安然,还有流连。
  一脸的风尘,留下了疑问,也学会了坚韧。在自己的生活里面,有波澜,有着沉湎;却会发觉,自己是主角。这是一份自豪,一份骄傲,在不断露出时光的微笑。学会了坚强,就会有着一份阳光,在不断回响。看着月光,有着迷茫,心儿在不断流浪。红尘的渡口,会看到无数人在忧愁;他们在选择,或者是在不断做出抉择,或者是已经进入人生的沼泽,还没有走出来,也没有看到自己的未来。却留下了心中的回忆,在不断涌动着小溪,在留下潺潺的得意。
  春秋在不断交替,在不断演绎。生活,不断伴有着希望在闪烁;也就像是火,在不断落错;而主角,从来就没有警觉,也没有惊觉,只是淡淡地看着,留下了别人的忐忑,还有那些揣测。岁月从来就没有变老,而时光里面总是会有着岁月的不依不挠;那些心,描绘着浮云,一丝一缕,在不断留下记忆的风雨。想要倦卧,想要没有任何的坎坷,想要看着水波,只是岁月的笑,看似缥缈,却在不断旋转,不断留下了波澜,让我们自己不由自主地向前。


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