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不是你想的那样
作者:stanish 发布日期:2020-03-09 点击数:1868
时间都过去了好久好久,没必要把那些个事情还放在心上。让人心堵的慌慌的,好像每天都会发生一些什么不幸的事情在自己身上。
  
  
  
   立秋不是早就过了吗,可是三伏天还没结束。末伏的威力比初、二伏要厉害很多。夏天倒没有把人怎么着,秋天倒是发飙了。热的让人有些透不过气来,于是整日的无精打采!
  
  
  
   索性一场大雨降下来!房子里面弥漫着汗水淡淡的味道,搭起门帘,让外面冷冷的空气占据房间……
  
  
  
   8月……
  
   时间在走,不紧不慢,不管你高兴还是悲伤,不管你得到还是失去。它总是那么永恒的流逝,我也是在不经意间才发现自己已经离开校门三年的光景。三年的光景长吗?不长吗?很久很久之前,我还认为10年会是一个很长的时间段。但10年还不是在弹指一挥间就结束了。10年前,10年后。生活会发生一些什么样的变化!
  
  
  
   我总是在一些非常细小的事情上面患得患失,这让我活的很累,我也曾经相信通过自己的努力,我会去做到一些事情。虽然这个貌似文明但实际上下三滥的社会存在着很多让人看不惯的东西,但是没有勇气跟它抗衡,当然不能跟它同流合污,所以就选择视而不见,到后来就见怪不怪了!
  
  
  
   这个世界上有很多很多的人,跟我一样两个肩膀扛着一颗脑袋的人。我们都在这样的世界上生活着,或凄苦,或幸福,或像我这样麻木到什么感觉都没有!每天碌碌无为的生活大概是这个世界上最奇妙的一种慢性毒药,它慢慢的侵蚀我们的神经,让我们永远都不明白自己在做些什么……
  
  
  
  
  
  午夜,天空又下起雨来,还夹杂着雷电,点亮手机看了一下时间。凌晨1时许,我原本以为天快亮了。呵呵,我总是习惯自己给自己创造错觉!
  
   于是坐在床上,点起一支烟,好像一个有着几十年烟龄的人一样叭叭的抽上几口……
  
  
  
  ……………………………………………………………………………………………………
  
  
  
   该结束的还是要结束,结束了的就要翻过去,管你愿意不愿意。我不知道恋爱是什么,我只知道傻里傻气对一个人好。但是爱情本来应该是公平的不是吗?那为什么我们谈恋爱的时候,还会那样的在乎自己的感觉?
  
   我终于知道这个世界上至少有一种努力是徒劳的,她说她不喜欢你……
  
  
  
   无助,你能做什么,夜里一个人躺在床上使劲的告诉自己,傻瓜啊傻瓜,她说她不喜欢你,为何还要那样不争气的去想她,去回忆过去跟她在一起的点点滴滴……
  
  
  
   而她根本就没拿你放在心上!
  
    
  
  
  
   有一天你终于还是会明白,你可以不用户去悲伤,可以不用去想她,可以不用去为一个自己永远都得不到的东西而努力,可以不用去为了争的她的眷顾去语无伦次的告白!然后,你会告诉自己,要摆正自己,做一个独立的自己!
  
    在爱情里,也要不卑不亢!原来这个世界谁都不会是谁的唯一!
  
  
  
    然后你还会像之前那样接听她的电话,跟她说拜拜!
  
  


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