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年华
作者:卢小山 发布日期:2020-04-12 点击数:1844
进入十月份,北方就逐渐凉爽起来,与凉爽相配套的是偶尔的大风,有时还会夹杂些尘土。
  
   对于天气和四季的变化,我一直是很在意的。比如下雨或起风的的时候就会想着出去走走,晴天或者沉闷的阴天就喜欢在室内呆着,宏观来看,春秋两季会倾向于动态,夏冬则往静态发展。另对昼伏夜出也能习惯,这方面就是对光线的敏感程度而变化。
  
   关于人与自然地话题,CCAV有个专门的节目,我觉得是为了与动物世界相适应做的姊妹片,所以基本不看。从另一个角度来说,因为有了理性思维,人对外界的感触是多种多样的,对于太多变量问题的探讨得出的结论还是变量太多,没什么意义。
  
   相对而言,四季和天气的变化则好办了很多,重现和排列组合十分良好。比如夏天的雨,先沉闷,再刮风,然后下雨,最后出太阳;比如秋天的风,只是不停的吹,还能局部的改变方向。然而这也不是一定的,春天的风能挂出秋天的感觉,冬季的暴雪也颇有夏日激昂的情调。所以在我看来,用一年四季来计数的话显得粗糙,用天气变化就精致了许多。
  
   于是年华就在对各种天气的感受中不断向前进和不断向流向身后。
  
   当然,还有不同的计数方式,因每个人的关注事物不同而异。不赘述。好在时间是平等和相互的,最重要的,是自己的。走过一段年华,收获各有不同,至于孰好孰坏,标准太多,各自心里有数 ,羡慕别人或是自我感觉良好也不太那么重要,或者跟随主流的标准,那也只是一个标准,仅此而已。
  
   这几天抽空翻了翻自己以前写的日志,可以上溯五年。不算长,还是有点变化。注意到之前提到过一个安全感的问题,大致是感慨在浮躁的背景下,男人缺乏安全感,于是各种拼搏,各种成功崇拜;女人缺乏安全感,于是各种美容,心计,纠葛,纠结,当然也不乏女强人自立拼搏的例子,连接男男女女之间的物件也被冠以安全的名义,“安全套”之谓也。
  
   从这上面可以看出我的无聊由来已久,作为一个旁观者观察别人的生活确实是一件有趣的事情,如果能得出某些具有概括性的结论,甚至能基于对个体的分析预测事情的走向就更好了。
  
   好像每件事情都变成理所当然,或者在叛逆者眼中不那么理所当然,走向另一个极端,人们就在这两种极端间面找到自己的群体互相温暖,还是安全感。
  
   写到这,想起来印象颇为深刻的一句话“谁说失恋就得吃哈根达斯不能吃包子。”说这句话的应该是位姑娘,还颇有反抗意识。在大多数姑娘看着言情哀伤小说,或者安妮宝贝伤感文字自顾形影相怜,想着自己多么悲伤得全世界都不理解的时候毅然投向吃包子的怀抱,虽然我也很喜欢吃包子,可是失恋为什么一定要想吃的呢,还是根据某位情感分析师的理论,感情饥渴转向生理饥渴用食物来替代性满足,后面还跟着一群现身说法的事实基础。
  
   关于安全感的话题,我有必要简单的补充一下:我也觉得没有什么比内心宁静更能带给人以安全感,这句话不是我说的。
  
   如果能宁静的看着四季更迭,年华飞逝,不再庸庸碌碌,四处奔走。每一朵白云都能成为仰望天空的理由,我想那应该是不错的。
  


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