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      一种生活一种心情
      发布日期:2020-03-12
        

        我曾自问,什么是生活,什么是心情。别人真的快乐吗?从她们的脸上,我找不到什么答案,人需要过自己的生活,又要有自己的心情。
        我曾有远大理想,无奈残酷的现实,硬把我的心击碎,我很想抬起头来,大雨拼命往下倒,冲在我不清醒的头脑上。
        那些做生意的梦,一直徘徊在我内心里,没有通向光明的方向,黑暗的道路上充满荆棘。我在拼命地奔跑,很想更快更好走好每一步,只是我没能明白生活的真谛。
        曾过去一间超市,里面年青的身影,还是让我觉得惊奇。在杀鸡的档口上,站着一位染发少年,他独自守在鸡笼子旁,别人过来买鸡,他立即动起手来,帮别人捉起鸡,还要拔鸡毛杀鸡,他娴熟的动作让我惊奇。
        他到底有什么样的心情,跟鸡打交道的日子,肯定会让人觉得难受。他是怎么坚持下来,如果换成是我,我接受不了这种生活。他还是一个少年,穿着是那么的时髦,即使在干这些脏活,他脸上显得那么平静,丝毫没有介意怕弄脏手。在他空闲的时候,手上还拿着手机,在跟别人发短信。
        他有我值得学习的地方,他虽然身处一个脏地方,自己却不受环境感染。无论别人有何眼光,他还是做着自己的事情,那种平静的心情让我觉得惊奇。
        做生意的人不容易,以前我替别人做跑腿,专帮别人回来送货,一天累得不成人样,我痛恨那种生活,不能按时吃饭,还要透支自己的体力。那是怎样的心情,精神在老板有打击下,已经觉得没有存在的意义。
        我终于离开那里,不想过那样的生活,再也不想感受那种心情。她们经常凌晨睡觉,中午才起床,下午赶着去市场拿货,晚上要在家里包货,包完后还要送货去邮局。她们赚的钱虽然多,时间却不够用,整天像一只热锅上的蚂蚁,为过上好日子而付出所有。
        在工厂工作的人,其实非常不容易,她们整天要在流水线上忙碌,没有属于自己的自由时间。这是一种怎么心情?再怎么坚强的人,在重复多次相同动作后,还是觉得自己很累。如果给她们选择,她们不要过这种生活,不如去外面的世界,做一只自由遨翔的小鸟。
        我还是忍受不住这种生活,我没有多余的时间,写作还变成奢侈的事情。在那段苦累的日子里,我的身心大受打击,看不到未来的方向,又不愿停留在此,做一只困笼的小鸟。我的心情非常低落,时常想过要离开那里,去过些属于自己的自由生活。
        在店铺里蜗居,日子倒挺清闲,我却慌出病来,没有大事情可做,我累得只想睡觉。这是怎样的心情?自己不甘碌碌无为,无奈现实没有出路,我被困住在原地,很想飞出外面的世界,不想呆在温室里。
        这是怎么的生活?我失去生存的动力,做起事情来慢条斯理,这里不是竞技场,我看不到对手,自己的在闲跑,即使跑得再快,我还是没有成绩。
        终于有一天,我明白什么是生活,生活便是现实,无论心情怎么好坏,生活还是生活。生活坏的时候,你的心情随之而坏,生活好的时候,你的心情猛然高涨。如此的大起大落,让人实在受不住,无法平衡那颗善感的心。还是古人说得好,不以物喜,不以己悲,这才是快乐之道。其实快乐很简单,过着一种平凡的生活,怀着一种平凡的心情。


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