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      感恩风雨
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        感恩风雨
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        从来就没有喜欢过风雨,虽然风雨会带着自然的旋律,却会让我受苦,让我的路,变得泥泞,不再是安宁。我在努力,我在坚持,我在留下毅力,只是这里面有着很多的无奈,也有着很多的生活的海,在不断澎湃。我想要说,那些希望之火,在闪烁;只是我的眉头,锁着时光的河流,伴随天空的浮云,在不断悠悠。斑驳的阳光,在诉说着它的徜徉;那些磨难,难道是锻炼?只是我的容颜,已经在改变,脸上已经开始有了沧海桑田。
        感恩风雨,因为风雨让我的脚步,有了坚韧,有了岁月的心,不断敢接受着日子的吻。可能我会继续跌倒,可能也会被那些时光的刀,不断刻去我的骄傲,还有我的自豪;可能这就是磨砺,也是我生命的春季。从来都是不肯屈服,也从来就没有想要低下我高昂的头颅;尽管在人生的征途,我曾经犹豫,曾经踌躇;这并不是我的本意,而是我的失意,也是那些迷离,在让我的梦,描绘着一份岁月的匆匆,还有一份时光的朦胧。
        感恩风雨,这是人生的歌曲,让我有了刚强,也变得不一样。天空的阳光,会不断把我的影子拉得很长;夜晚的月亮,会不断让我惆怅;生活的海浪,会让我变得彷徨。只是我的思想,还是在不断向往,看着前方。可以轻易地感受着时光的回旋,可以轻易地品味着生命的烂漫,也可以轻易地看到回忆的绚烂;只是我的眷恋,有几分悠然,飞舞着我的情感,也在不断荡漾我的心愿,也不可能会抹去现实里面的幽怨,还有那些点点滴滴的遗憾。
        感恩风雨,让我的路,有了传奇,还有美丽。从来就没有想要松懈,尽管可以看到日子的圆缺。红尘里面的风沙,会有着我的挣扎,而不可能会让我保持着任何的优雅。曾经觉得是风雨搅乱了我的生活,让我失落;并没有看到日子里面的脉络,看到只是我的思索,却没有看到承诺。直到有一天,我才觉悟着这就是生活的容颜;看着大海里面的波澜,可以感受着这一份心中的情感。并不可能会屈服,只能是走着自己路,让脚步变得坚韧,也有了认真。
        感恩风雨,让我在日子里面沐浴,曾经的岁月,就像是六月的雪,让我感觉到沉重,而没有任何的轻松。尽管有着几分婉约,却足以让我想要退却。这是时光的音容,而不是我的心动。我想要成为风雨里面的风景,而不是风雨里面的落红;就不再是弯下了腰,而是昂首表示着自己的笑;不想要保持着时光的根基,而是想要构筑着自己的神奇。尽管风雨的残酷,在我的脸上有了纹路;刻满了岁月的疑问,也会落下了几分时光的吻。
        感恩风雨,让我可以拨开前方的迷雾,把脚下的路,看清楚。毕竟生活里,会有着冷冷清清的寒意;而我,经历风雨的洗礼,会变得刚毅;迈出稳健的步伐,在风雨可以进行优雅。不可能会说自己对生命的感知,也不可能会想要说着那份心意;只是想要在风雨里面有着自己的花开,可以让自己的生命变得豪迈,可以让那些时光变得澎湃。多少刺骨的孤独,伴随着风雨,让我一天天长大,让我开始慢慢地喜欢着这些风沙,还有优雅。


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