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      紫花苜蓿
      发布日期:2020-03-17
        
        夜已深,关掉了所有的灯光,身边只剩下电脑荧光屏发出的淡淡蓝光。独坐在计算机前的我望着QQ发呆,多希望此时此刻你能够奇迹般的出现在我的眼前,一阵清风般从我耳边吹过,把我从幻觉中惊醒。

        在如此冰冷的深夜,你或许已经进入梦乡,你梦中是否会有我的出现?劳累了一天,本应该已经躺在床上,可我不敢,我怕一旦闭上双眼,你的影子如同幽灵一般便出现在我的梦中。时间在我手指敲打键盘的瞬间悄悄流走,生理的疲倦悄然来到我的身边,眼睛如同受到万恶诅咒,不自然的闭上,又艰难的睁开。我想我真的困了。躺在同样没有温度,同样冰冷的床上。我似乎有些麻木,冰凉的手脚完全感受不到血液流动带来的哪怕一丝的温暖。我感觉到我在发抖。半睡半醒之间,你微笑着向我走来,我知道这是梦,这不是真的,于是你蕴怒的离我而去,我赶紧伸出手想抓住你,可是你却越走越远,越走越快。慢慢地睁开眼睛,望着漆黑的天花板,我完全分不清楚我是醒着还是依然在梦中,想想刚才你的一颦一笑,是那么的真切,那么的绝情,离开又是那么的无奈。绝情中含着无奈,这是怎样的感觉?你让我如何自处?

        我下床,点燃一支烟。从窗户望向外面的世界,屋前面一片低矮的紫花苜蓿在寒风中倒向一边,不停摇摆,却始终无能为力,我的眼睛湿润了!重新坐在机子前面,发呆的看着发亮的显示器,在整个房间,我的世界里,唯有香烟的火星与荧光屏的一点点光证明这是一个活着的世界。除此之外世界如此漆黑,感觉不到一丝希望。我不知道是不是失去你或者离开你而造就的。夜里很冷,我能感受到的是体温在一点一滴的流失,不仅仅是我的躯体上,我的心也在此刻开始颤抖。你再也不会在我身边温暖我这颗孤寂失去直觉的心。我静静的坐着,我已经习惯了这样的夜,突然想到一句话“寂寞是如此美丽”。

        香烟不知不觉已经烧了很多,惊醒之后的我完全没有了睡眠的感觉,是不是你把瞌睡从我身边赶走,而带来了死神。我的手冰冷甚至僵硬,已经完全没有办法再敲打键盘,我仿佛听到在遥远的星际传来了一阵阵的优美的竖琴声,我晓得,死神的使者已经开始在我身边弹起他那勾魂的音乐。我即将要被死神带到我该去的地方了,而你是否在远方的城市安好?我含着泪的双眼,是否该接受你的逃避和存在。我想只有离开这个世界的那一刻,才可以把你忘记,才不再希冀奇迹的出现。

        我的故事里本不该有你的存在,在这个破碎的世界中,一切都不能去怪谁,也明白这个世界更不会有谁对谁错。我脑子已经停止转动,一片空白,使者的琴声离我越来越近,它已让我停止思考,跟着他去我该去的地方,我在琴声中渐渐闭上眼睛,让我去在梦中再次看到你的笑容。是不是一旦睡去,我真的会从此再也不用醒来?你的影子真的不会再出现?

        就在清晨第一丝光亮出现的那一刻我在绝望中居然睡着了。死神离我而去,你依旧在我的梦中来而复去,带走了我幸福的灵魂,留下一幅可怜躯壳在这个有你的世界继续飘荡。窗外的紫花苜蓿依旧艰难的在寒风中坚持,摇摆!我第一次在梦中流泪!



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