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      木言
      发布日期:2020-05-04

      许多的时候,他总会独自点上一颗烟,看着泛着红晕的颜色伴着白雾消散在模糊的视线里,然后转身离开原本眷恋的地方,朝着漫无目的的前方。深深浅浅的走着,似乎望着那片云朵飘过的痕迹,没有过多的言语,认识他的人都知道,他在想她。
      “你不觉得这很美吗?”他怀里的女子有些慵懒的依偎着。
      “或许我得它很低调,虽然很美,但它低调的绚丽而过。就像你一样,一直是个谜,我猜不透的谜。”他没有望着她,眯着眼看着眼前的烟花。
      我想这些年来你或许会忘了我是谁,忘了我的容颜,忘了我的撒娇,我的幼稚与异想天开。
      窗口透着微风看得到里面的装饰,一种专属的金碧辉煌。但怎么也猜不透桌上摆着的廉质的物品是怎样占到这么一席之地,女子的脸是一种病态的白,紧紧靠着的眉毛说明她现在很痛苦,手里一直朱红色的铅笔被她握着,远远的像是佝偻的老头,再也直不起来。
      她叫木言。没有姓。因为她不喜欢,一直执拗着。

      发现她没有了往日的欢声笑语,这位掌握许多人生命线的中年男子再也忍不住自己的狂暴的情绪。一地的碎片,还有那幅一直放在办公桌后面的个人肖像,那么凄凉的一幕,似乎在很多年前也发生过,但这不再是那年的事了。
      木言是他最后的依靠了。妻子的撒手人寰,商业上的不顺,让他把气撒在这最后的一片的净土里。而那响亮的声音久久不能消散,埋在木言的心里。
      那天的离家出走已经 木言尽到的最大勇气。她穿着她的水晶鞋,漫步在充斥着陌生的油墨路上。一段充满新奇和慌乱的旅途,让她遇到这辈子不会忘记的王子,虽然王子和他沾不到边。

      絮叨的风铃一直悬挂在木质的门框上,山清水秀的环境让木言不再想家里的那个男人会不会生气,她的心里此时此刻是甜蜜的。她会认为这所有的欢乐都是争取来得,一个坚强温暖的环抱,一个属于自己想要的我窝。每天清晨醒来的问候是那么的幸福,平凡而又无忧的世界。
      他有抽烟的习惯,跟家里的老头很像。木言从未劝阻过,只会默默在他身边唠叨着自己今天又学到哪些家务,她会开始学着照顾自己了。
      他没有太多的话语,看着晚霞照着远处的一片阴霾的青山上,很久很久才会呼着一口浊气,转身做些粗重的家务。只是在做着事前都会摸着木言独有柔顺的头发,像是一个风烛残长的老人看着自己的孩子,眼神总有对时光的不甘。

      离开那个像极了病房的建筑物时,木言已经没有说话的力气。她望着板着脸的男人轻轻的说了句,就闭上强撑很久的眼皮,再也没有睁开。

      这段没有开头了结尾的日记在一个寂静的夜里从满是灰尘的储藏室里找出来,因为很久没有用,纸张有着它独有的微黄色。上面用铅笔写着:如果那天你能抓住我的手告诉不要走,或许我会告诉你宝宝会很好。但是我们彼此习惯了对方的沉默。我告诉那个老头,男孩就叫墨言,女孩就烟花。因为这是唯一能记住你的几个字眼。


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